Festival of Colorzzz.

Well, this weekend was fun! Specifically Saturday--

Festival of COLORS!

Jordz, Derek, and I started out the lovely overcast morning at Kneaders for all-you-can-eat french toast. Oh how lovely it was! It's honestly the best french toast on this planet, and if  you've never had it, I advise you grab a friend or two and head down to your local Kneaders bakery and partake of the bless-ed goodness.

I promise, you wont regret it.

After breakfast, we hopped on the freeway and headed down to Spanish Fork to the Krishna temple... Don't worry, we didn't even get lost... NOT. We got SUPER lost. First of all, the GPS was telling us to drive, so we were following it's directions cause, well, isn't that what a GPS is for?? That's what I thought too... We were driving along a road and the GPS said, "Drive 1.4 miles then... Make a U-turn."

"What the eefffff??", Derek and I said basically simultaneously.

By this point, we were in Payson. Definitely not where we should have been. We found the freeway and got back to Spanish Fork, then the GPS led us to some random spot by the mountains that had absolutely NOTHING.. We pulled off to the side of the road to call Alex and figure out where we were supposed to go. Before we knew it, four other cars had pulled off behind us. They were ALL lost... All their GPS's led them to that location... Phew, at least it wasn't just us! We eventually found the temple after what felt like forever. We met up with Alex and his other friends that were with him and the party started!

I've never been part of a disaster like that in my life!

BUT, it was so much fun. The weather was cool, perfect temperature, and everyone was nice and there to just have fun! No douchebags that were shoving and being jerks like at concerts.

Krishna Temple, up on the hill.

This was like a tenth of the people, I swear.

This was before we were completely covered.

Jordz.

D-rock.

Home, after the festivities. My mother told me to not touch a thing.

That was the sweetest, most colorful shower ever!

PS- I HAVE BLONDE HAAAAIIRRRR AGAIN!! :]

But, the pink from Color Festival wont come out... I'll give it a few days to see if it fades... If not, I'll be getting my hair done again. Poop. I'm not made of money! Good thing it was worth it!

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That's how I feel about this whole entire day!

Luckily I have a Skype date later with Mari who is in Argentina :]

Can't wait to see and talk to her!

A Reason.

Sometimes, I wish I could go back to the way things used to be...

But then I think about everything I had to go through to get HERE...

And I remember that I've been blessed with amazing people in my life...

And there's a reason why it's NOT the way it used to be.

The Battle has been Conquered.

Sometimes pain becomes a huge part of your life, that you expect it to always be there... Because you can't remember a time in your life when it wasn't...

But then one day you feel something else-- Something that feels wrong, only because it's so unfamiliar...

And in that moment you realize... You're Happy.

Today, I realized that being happy isn't entirely impossible for myself... Two months ago you would have never heard that come out of my mouth. I learned very quickly that the Lord really does answer prayers. It's amazing to me how quickly I got my answer. I am incredibly blessed.

I can finally HONESTLY say that I KNOW I'm going to be okay. I feel like I've come so close to the end of this ten-month battle... And I came out a warrior. I'm stronger now than I was going into the fight. I hurt, I cried, and I fought... But I learned. A lot.

I have learned to accept and be content with where I'm at in life. I'm taking it one day at a time. I have my friends, I have my family... And when I don't have them, I have myself.

I'm enough for myself.

Life can be pretty great sometimes. Thanks to all who helped me get to this point and made me who I am today. Couldn't have done it without you :]

trenton grant edwards

It's been a very busy last couple of days and I haven't had the time to post about something

VERY IMPORTANT...

My BFF's birthday!

Trenton Grant Edwards; Born March 14, 1990

{This is a classic Gangsta-Trent photo...}

Things I love about this boy & some memories:

-He's super chill.

-We have a lot of similar views and see eye to eye on a lot of random topics.

-We have suffered through Kava parties together.

-Ghost hunting is our favorite past time.

{Ohh emm geee... Ghost droppings...}

{He's the BEST ghost hunting partner!}

-We have been on more drives together than you could imagine, and it's fun every time!

-We went to Gay Pride together. Yikes.

-He's such a great friend-- He got me through some really difficult things in my life just by listening and being there when I needed him. Poor kid listened to the same crap for like six months and was okay with it! {I think?? Haha}

-He comes from such an awesome family. His parents are so bomb and raised him well!

-He's a hard worker-- At everything! He works everyday, he was going to school full time [Before he graduated and became a certified MA, which I'm proud of him for!] and he usually goes to the gym everyday! Gettin' those ripped muscles for the ladies :]

-He still goes to math class {which I know he hates} but still passes and makes it look easy!

-He has really good taste in movies. Like, REALLY good. Every movie we've watched has been fabulous! He showed me one of my now all-time favorites Into the Wild.

We be Christopher Mccandless fans :]

-He's always down to go to a random local show with me. So fun.

-He also has great taste in music. He's introduced me to some favs... Especially Band of Horses! Where would I be without the Horses? {There have been so many others as well.}

-He's capable of loving someone. I watched him love a girl and get his heart broken, over and over... But he's stayed strong in the face of it all which kinda gives me hope for myself... If he can do it, so can I!

{PS- I don't recommend breaking his heart... Cause it makes me want to beat your #*%!$&@* and kill you-- Which you really don't want.}

-I enjoy the fact that he's a great photographer!

{One of our favorite ghost hunting locations}

I'm sad I don't have copies of some of my favorites of his work to share... They're on his computer...

They're fabulous tho, and he's made really sweet canvas prints of a few.

Someday I'll share :]

-He can still hold a good conversation with me when he's gaming... Which is rare for a guy!

-We have a mutual love for cereal and eat it together often.

-He's bad ass enough to get a motorcycle. {Not purchased yet, but he's been looking!}

-He's the only guy I've ever been BFF's with that will sit and talk on the phone with me for an hour.

-He lets me wear his Indian pancho when I'm feeling a bit under the weather.

-He spends Halloween with me and my broken heart, complete with getting stopped and questioned by the cops. He always plays it cool.

-He's a good guy. He's ALWAYS had my back and has said the things I needed to hear.

I'm lucky that things worked out the way they did so that I could have Trent as my fabulous friend!

He's been amazing and I just looooooovee him!

Happie Happie Birthday!

♥ ♥ ♥

Thoughts.

These are my thoughts right now:

-Today was a useless day. I never even got ready.
-I still feel like crap even though I slept most of the day.
-I'm annoyed with so many things right now.
-Boys are retarded.
-I need a punching bag.
-Actually, I need to go for a long run... Far, far away.
-Best friends "forever" is crap. It doesn't mean anything.
-I need a vacation. Somewhere really fun where I can forget things just for a while.
-I hope I get this job. I'd be rich.
-I've been cleaning my room all night and I can't even tell yet. That's how bad it was.
-I don't want to get up at 5 freakin AM tomorrow to work.
-But, I'm glad I get to leave when the store actually opens.
-Hopefully I get off on time cause I want all you can eat french toast from Kneaders with Jordz.
-Daylight savings is stupid.
-I need to check if my gym pass is still good. I should have checked three months ago.
-I need to get skinny. REALLY skinny. And fast.
-I wish I were back in school.
-It makes me sad when people die on TV shows.
-I'm obsessed with the music from One Tree Hill. It's so good.
-I wish I could breathe out of my nose.
-I hope tomorrow is a nice day.
-Tomorrow is Trents birthday.
-I got him a weird gift. But he'll probably like it.
-I'm still annoyed. This vent sesh didn't do much good.
-I quit.
-Then end.

The days Events...

Today... was an eventful day.

First of all, it's 3/11/11.... 311... DUH.

{Sweet Pic}

Next, the Japan disaster is just horrifying. It makes me so sad to watch the news and hear the updates. It absolutely breaks my heart. Hopes and prayers go out to everyone who has been effected. Also, prayers go out to those who are working their butts off to deliver aid and support during this tragic time.

{soooo sad}

[[ I had a fabulous interview this morning full of positive news.

Cross your fingers and your toesies for me!! ]]

Then, I went shopping today. The 'rents gave me a hundred and fifty buckaroos from their tax return for me to spend on "ANYTHING, but bills or gas". (My mothers words... Not mine. But I'm NOT complaining!) Thanks Mom & Dad!

Finally, I got to see my BFF, Trent today. We went to a wedding receptions which was lovely. Everything was beautiful. Then we went for a short drive and chatted... Caught up on life. Then he showed me the motorcycle he wants. It's sweet.

Then I took little brother to dinner because he had a bit of a rough night. I figured I'd be a good big sis and try to cheer him up. Hopefully it helped...?

Today, I felt like I grew up a little bit.

It's a good feeling.

It's positive.

I still miss some frenz terribly.

 I feel like I haven't spent much time with anyone lately since I've been working and sick.

Mostly I worry about Japan. Keep them in your thoughts and prayers.

Also my Old friend, Hope and Brett Ovard... Whos baby boy that was just born is now at Primary Childrens Hospital undergoing surgeries.

This is her update: 

  

"So Gage has what's called a diaphragmatic hernia. Today they did surgery to close the hernia. When they went in to repair things they had to take his spleen, part of his stomach, and his small and large intestines out of his left chest cavity and put things back in place. They left the wound open so that his abdomen can adjust to having the organs in the right place and they will close it next Tuesday or Wednesday. Looking at the x-Ray he has a left lung and it fills the entire cavity (the nurse said usually with this problem you don't see that much lung), so right now things are looking good, it'll still be a long recovery so primary childrens will be our new home for the next month (or months). Thanks for all the prayers they have truly been felt."

{Pray for their little bundle of joy}