Tuesday, April 26, 2011

The Magic of Disney

This is the most adorable thing
I have ever seen...

Someday, I hope to have a beautiful daughter
like this little girl...
so I can take her to Disneyland and
get a photo just like this.

I'm in love with this.

Monday, April 25, 2011

This I Vow...

LOVE (noun, verb)
1. A profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
2. A feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.
3. Sexual passion or desire.
4. A person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.
1. The social institution under which a man and woman establish their decision to live as husband and wife by legal commitments, religious ceremonies, etc.
DIVORCE (noun, verb)
1. A judicial declaration dissolving a marriage in whole or in part, especially one that releases the husband and wife from all matrimonial obligations.
2. The dissolution of marriage.
Here are three things I'm terrified of.
I have tried to be open to the idea of love, and finding the "perfect" person... But It doesn't get me far. I look at the examples around me and I think to myself, "It's no wonder that love and marriages scare the hell out of me... My most influential examples all have failing marriages."
So I've given up hope. Most marriages these days seem to be ending in divorce. It's awful... It's hard on hearts and it's hard on the kids if there are any involved. I don't want to be another person that's part of the divorce statistic. I don't want to be another person with a broken heart because my spouse ended up being a completely different person than the one I fell in love with in the first place.
The only thing I ever wanted was one of those ridiculous love story, head-over-heels, full on fireworks kind of love...
But it doesn't exist. Especially not like in the movies.
Guys don't really chase girls down and pour their heart out, right when he's just about to never see her again...

Guys don't really jump on a last minute flight to tell a girl he's in love with her and needs to be with her...

Guys don't really kiss the crap out of their girl in a full on rainstorm...

Guys don't really look at girls like this...
Guys don't really say things like this...

Love like this doesn't happen...
Epic love stories don't really exist.
So, I vow to never get married. Ever.

Sunday, April 17, 2011


I can honestly say that I never knew the true definition of strength until I watched 127 Hours...

Ya know, the story about the mountaineer who slipped and got his arm pinned under a rock...
He was forced to choose death or to fight and get out alive.

He chose to fight.

No water, no food, drinking his own pee to stay alive, he cut his own arm off and got himself out of the canyon.

That kind of strength is only found within an extremely strong individual. Strong, deep down.
I don't think I would ever have that strength.
Unfortunately, I have to admit that I'd probably give up real quick.
Someday I hope that I can be the kind of person who can find that strength.

I cant believe I went this long without seeing this movie. Sure, I wanted to see it ever since it came out but I never did anything about seeing it. I highly recommend you Redbox it if you haven't seen it yet. I promise you won't be disappointed.
 The autobiography, Between a Rock and a Hard Place was was written after Ralston's experience.
You bet I'm gonna go pick up a copy of it Monday morning.

"When you're struggling with something, look at all the people around you and realize that every single person you see is struggling with something, and to them, it's just as hard as what you're going through."

My mom always says, "I guarantee if you put your problems in a bowl with everyone elses... You'd choose to take yours back out and just deal with it."

I'm thankful I've never had to cut my own arm off.
I normally wouldn't have stopped to think that that was ever a blessing...

but it is.

Friday, April 15, 2011

Growing Pains

You know that dull, throbbing pain you would have as a child in your leg, or your knees?

Growing pains.

Sometimes you would wake up in the morning sore, because your body had been growing all night.
You grew out of  your clothes faster than your parents could buy you new ones that would fit you...
Sometimes that's how I feel about life.

There are days when I think I can literally feel my mind, heart, and soul growing...
It's part of growing up. And the worst part is...
Sometimes it REALLY hurts. 

Sometimes I feel like I'm emotionally or intellectually sore from constantly taking in the growing pains of life.
Sometimes I wonder why my heart is still beating after everything it's been through.
Sometimes I feel like a fighter... A warrior...
Sometimes I feel like a failure.
An unconquered success.

Sometimes I fear loosing the best things in my life--
The best people in my life.
Cause lets face it- I've already lost some.

I worry that some people were just placed into this part of my life for a purpose and they too, will soon be gone...
That they will move on with their own journey in life.

I fear the feeling of realization that it was partially (sometimes mostly, sometimes all) my fault that I lost the ones I already lost.
I fear having to take a step back and realizing the mistakes I've made with people... The disappointments I've caused.
I fear accepting the fact that sometimes, people aren't meant to stay in your life forever... That someday, I will loose them or will be forced to let them slip away.

I fear being completely honest with people.
I fear that I wont ever find the one person that I can tell absolutely EVERYTHING to.
I fear having to accept the fact that I'm difficult to want to take a chance on.
I fear that I'll never find the missing puzzle pieces of my own self.

It scares me.
Life scares me.
Growing up scares me.

But somehow... My heart is still beating...

I'm still alive.

That's gotta mean something...


Friday, April 8, 2011

The Mother of Pet Peeves

Today, luck wasn't exactly on my side. I kinda sorta got lost in Salt Lake... I called my mom, almost in tears because my GPS wasn't working and I couldn't figure out how to get where I was going- (Precisely why I need a functional GPS). She calmed me down but told me to call my dad at work because he knows the area better than she does. I called my pops and he explained directions to me and helped me figure out where I needed to be. It was a pathetic situation but hey, it sucked. I've never been super good at directions and easily get lost in unfamiliar territory, then I panic if I'm alone. Who cares if you're lost with friends? It makes for an interesting adventure. But when you're lost alone... It's super frustrating.

After I finished the things I needed to do, I was ready to head home... But by then I had a serious case of road rage because I was flustered and annoyed that so much time was wasted... Did I mention by this point, it was rush hour? Yeah, rush hour in Salt Lake can kiss my butt. It sucks. Rush hour plus ridiculous, retarded drivers causes even worse road rage. My bestie, Jordz recently wrote a post about one of his biggest pet peeves. (You can read all about it here.) The stupid drivers situation qualifies as one of my top five biggest pet peeves. Okay fine. It's my number one pet peeve.

So I'm here today to lay down the rules of driving. Things must change on the road if everyone in Utah would like to live. Or else you might see this a few times... And then I'll kill you :]

Here are my issues, in no particular order.

When Driving on the Freeway:

[1] DON'T break... Unless of course you're in serious danger of ramming into someone. If you notice that you're starting to catch up to the car in front of you, either change lanes to keep your speed, or let off the gas until your pace slows and you're consistent with the car ahead.

[2] Never go under 70 mph on the freeway... (When it's not too backed up of course.) No one likes driving behind you at 50 MPH in the fast lane! If I wanted to go 50 MPH, I'd take state street! The freeway is for fast people.

[3] Always use your blinker when changing lanes. The freeway moves fast enough (or should at least) so people need to be aware of what you are doing. PS- When you see someone elses blinker... LET THEM THE FREAK OVER! I promise it will NOT kill you to let a car merge in front of you... okay?? No one likes to miss their exit and have to back track, or get stuck behind a slow driver because you won't let them in front of you to pass them.

[4] If you switch lanes, you sure as hell better be going as fast, or faster than the car coming up behind you. Are you TRYING to kill someone?? No one should have to slam on their breaks cause you move your butt over and go too slow.

[5] Don't drive in the carpool lane if you don't have other passengers with you. It defeats the purpose. Jerk. No... Diego DOESN'T COUNT AS ANOTHER HUMAN!

[6] Don't tail people on the freeway. It's scary and dangerous.

When Making a Left Hand Turn:

Turn wide enough so that you don't have to break to avoid clipping the front end of the car that is making their own left turn. PS- If you're the "other" car, stop a bit further back behind the line so there is plenty of room for the car that is turning.

When Making a right Hand Turn:

[1] Don't turn on a red light unless you know for sure you won't cut the cars off coming from the other direction.

[2] When taking a right, pull as far over as you can so that the cars behind you don't have to break down to a measly five miles per hour and wait for you to turn your fat, children-filled suburbans.

When You're Old:

On your 60th birthday, you should be re-evaluated to see if you should still be aloud to drive. 60 seems to be about the average age that old people start to piss me off on the road. Seriously Gramps, the younger generations don't have time to wait on your slow-poke butts to figure out what you're doing.

Note: Re-evaluations should take place every year after the age of 60.

When You're Young:

Dear 15 year olds, you better complete your 80 hours of driving practice with your parents for REALS. None of this lying, fake signature crap... Because people can't handle your immature, mindless driving. When you finally turn 16, chill out. I know it's fun to start driving but do it safely, and pay attention to what you're doing and be aware of the other cars around you. Plus, don't text and drive til you can handle JUST driving first. (No, I'm not saying it's okay to text and drive... But we pretty much all do it. Just don't try and handle it when you know you can't.)

Other Situatuons and Thoughts to Take Account of:

[1] We all check our phones, send texts or search for a new song on our iPods when sitting at red lights... But pay attention to when it turns green so you don't hold everyone up. It's annoying.

[2] Turn your headlights on during a storm. Duh...
And at night... You look like an idiot driving around at night with your lights off... How do you not notice??

[3] The fast lane (left lane) is for FAST people. Don't drive in it if you're not going to drive fast. Move your butt all the way to the right. 

[4] Don't stare at me at red lights. Its awkward and annoying.

[5] You don't have to punch it when the light turns green so you can beat me... I'm not trying to race you and quite frankly, I don't care if you're ahead of me.

[6] Don't talk on your cell if its going to distract you from the road. (I feel like this mostly applies to middle-aged people and older... Teens and young adults seem to be able to multi-task in this area at a decent level.)

Alright, well I feel a bit better now that I've gotten that off my chest.

What are your biggest pet peeves when behind the wheel??
Comment and tell me your peeves and your crazy driving stories!

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Because they do.

Take a look at yourself in a mirror.
Who do you see looking back?
Is it the person you want to be?
Or is there someone else you were meant to be?
The person you should have been, but fell short of.
Is someone telling you you can't, or you wont?

Because you can.

Believe that love is out there.
Believe that dreams come true everyday, because they do.

Happiness doesn't some from money, or fame, or power...

Happiness comes from good friends, and family,
and from the quiet nobility of leading a good life.

So take a look in that mirror and remind yourself to be happy...
Because you deserve to be happy.
And believe that dreams come true everyday...

Because they do.

Saturday, April 2, 2011


Fact. I pretty much never blog anymore... And it sort of depresses me.
Fact. I'm so effing exhausted right now its not even funny. I don't even know why I'm blogging. I should be sleeping.
Fact. Ten hour work days suuuuckk. Especially THIS ten hour work day. It was as bad as back-to-school time... Every woman and ALL their children and sisters and nieces and nephews and friends and kids friends and neighbors and cousins and strangers decided to shop at Justice today... (catch my drift?) 
NOT KIDDING. Holy efffff. Men, stop going to conference priesthood sessions and control your wives shopping sprees! JK... Priesthood is a great thing, keep going :]
Fact. I'm starving.
Fact. My Diet Coke sucked today. Total let down.
Fact. My room is the biggest disaster it's been in a long time! I literally am going to wash all my clothes cause I'm not sure whats clean or dirty anymore.
Fact. I'm a blessed young soul. And I'm thankful.
Fact. I'm so glad to have my car back and all fixed up. It's pretty.
Fact. I LOVE Justin Bieber. Like, a lot... A LOT.
Fact. It really makes me sad to see my sister change so much. I feel like I don't know her anymore... I don't even remember the last time we spoke.
Fact. I'm still sooo happy my hair is back to blonde-ish :]
Fact. I'm going to find food now, clean my room for a bit, and hit the sack.

Peace hoe.